That 2021

 I looked up and I saw a dark shadow.  Am I  dreaming?  What's happening?  Hun! Wake up! Call Security!  What are you talking about? I was so confused. Why am I calling security?  Mary is on the floor in the elevator room.    Mary is my 90 year old neighbor.  -So many questions flooded my foggy brain:  -Why is she on the floor?  -How did my husband know this at 12:30 AM?  I grabbed my glasses and my phone. I called security.  No answer.  Call nonemergency.   What ? I called the precinct. No one answered. And I couldn't figure out the extension because I was still very foggy.  Call 911.  I called and got transferred to EMS.  My neighbor is on the floor. She is 90 years old and seemed very confused. She needs assistance.  Where are you?  #11 East 35 st.  What are the cross streets?  What?  Is she exhibiting signs of covid?  I have no idea.  Yes, in 2021 I was a...

News Flash : CDC guidelines have changed 6 feet to 3 feet. I should be jumping up and down but I'm triggered. All of the changes are making me feel insane.  I check my email obsessively.  And now the questions: How will it work? What does it mean for remote teachers?  What about my in person colleagues? What about my students?  I'm exhausted from all of this! So I'm off to love my smooshy Bulldog!  The End.  And to top it off this post didn't save and I had to type it all over again. Sigh😩

Most years, a student might move and leave  class. But this is not most years.  Remote learning is not ideal so students come in and out frequently.  Blended isn't working, they join.  Remote is not working, they leave.  Childcare is hard, they leave.  Someone is quarantined, they join.  Now, the classes in school are full. So no changes, right? No way. Today two new students arrived.  They were absolutely lovely.  They were fun!  But these changes have been hard.  I've gotten in the habit of checking my email frequently, almost obsessively, so I'm not caught off guard. That's happened five minutes before school another change. Sunday night, change.  And I know everyone is feeling it but that doesn't make it better.   Today we ended with some kind words.   What was the best part of your  day? Meeting my new friends!  So in the end... it didn't matter.  All of my anxiety washed away for today....